Tore Up!

Not me, my house.  There is trash in the floor, dishes in the sink, a missing shoe, and just (for me) a little chaos.  And it is all good.  My siblings and their families had Christmas this evening.  All this disarray says to me that a good time was had by those here.  I do not want to be remembered as the aunt, granny, or sister that got all bent out of shape about her house getting messed up.  I want them to all remember that we were here together and enjoyed being with each other.  No elaborate gifts or lots of money spent just plenty of food, fun, and togetherness.  Most of this mess will still be here for a couple of days because it most likely will be Tues. night or Wed. morning before I get a chance to tidy up and you know what the earth will not stop turning.  There will be many families that will not be able to say that they got together or that they enjoyed being together.  I am thankful that is not the case for us.  This was the first year that I have had Christmas at my house since Bobby died and I will admit to feeling sad much of the day.  One of those days of feeling sad and glad at the same time.  I guess this is a sign of healing.  Hope everyone has a good week.  Working about 3 hours at job 3 in the morning before leaving for a horse sale (job 2).  Not sure if there will be any work on job 1 tomorrow, will just have to wait to see if there are any phone calls.  Take care.