Let's Make a Deal

Let's make a deal.  When I can walk on water then I will judge you, likewise when you can walk on water you may judge me.

Have I Mentioned?

Or I should say, have I mentioned lately how much I love a horse sale?  After this week you would think that I might have gotten my fill.  4 sales in 3 states in 8 days.  Worked at 2 and spectator at 2.  Well you know what, I am already looking forward to Sat. when I can go to another.  I am not sure that I understand it, but I do enjoy it.  I enjoy looking at the horses, mingling with the crowd, and just the overall atmosphere.  I really believe I could just sit there all by myself, watch and listen and be content.  Things that make you go "um".

TGIF

Yes, thank God that it is Fri.  This week has flown by and yet I still am thrilled that is after 5 p.m. on Fri.  Looking forward to a quiet evening at home (after going to buy a few groceries if the rain lets up).  Going to a horse sale as an observer tomorrow that I am really looking forward to.  Then hopefully a quiet peaceful day on Sunday.  Unless, someone wants to do something.  For the past couple of weeks it has been some of those days that I meet myself coming in as I am going out.  Yet, I am so thankful that I have the energy to do this, people that want me to do things with them, and the time to do them.  With that thought in mind I will leave you with this pearl of wisdom.  "You should appreciate what you have before it becomes what you had."  I do appreciate all that I have and I don't just mean those material things.  I appreciate good health, good friends, and great family.  Have an awesome weekend. 

Choices

This was posted by one of my FB friends in the last several days and it pretty well sums it up.  Some of you may have seen my post before or heard me say in person that life is all about choices.  We don't always make the right one.  God knows that I have made many, many that were wrong.  However, I have learned the value of saying, "I screwed up".  I am not proud of some of my choices but as life is an ever evolving process I choose to not let my mistakes define who or what I am.  I choose to be stronger and better.  I also have made many, many good choices.  For those I choose not to brag or feel pride in myself.  I choose to always try to be better from all my choices.  Even though I am not a really young person (mentioned to a friend this week that I don't mind getting older, I just don't want to act "old"), I choose to learn new things, try new things, and spread my wings.  As you are making your choices, if you choose to pass judgement on me then my heart aches for you.  Ya'll have heard me say before it is amazing the difference one letter makes, I can become bitter or I can become better.  I choose to become better.  Have an awesome day.

In a Nutshell

Tonight I am:  humbled, thankful, and tired.  Oh, and I love my truck.

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy valentine's children.  Just taking a moment to share a couple of thoughts with you.  For all of my pissing and moaning about being alone, let me take a moment to encourage you.  If you are in a relationship, especially if that relationship is marriage, do all you can to embrace, protect, and nurture it.  Life is far too short to live with regrets, hurts, "what ifs", and "I wish I hads".  Love your mate, cherish them, and as important as being lovers is don't forget to be their friend.  Remember class, love is not selfish.  Oh, and keep the words of Vince Gill in mind, "it's hard to kiss the lips at night that chew your ass out all day long."
Happy Valentine's Day

Love Is

I promised a special Valentine's post so here it is.

If you asked 25 different people what is love, after several uhs, ummms, and blank looks you would probably get 25 different answers.  I challenge you that it is much easier to define what love isn't than what love is.  And it is really very simple.

Love isn't selfish.  Stop for a moment and think about it.  And since there are many different types of love for many different relationships you can apply this to any of them.  Love is not selfish.

Think of the love that a mother and/or father has for a child.  99% of the time they will put that child's needs above their own.  Think of the love you have for a beloved pet.  If that pet needs to be taken outside and walked you put it's needs before your own.  Think of the love a child has for a parent especially as that parent begins to age.  We put their needs ahead of our own.  Think of the love you have for your siblings.   Think of the love you have for your true friends.  And lastly, think of the love you have for your spouse.  Love is not selfish, it always wants what is best for the other party in the relationship. 

I guess I came to the full realization of this when it was obvious that short of a miracle, Bobby was going to die and it was going to be soon.  As we sat and talked I realized I loved him too much to hold on to him.  I wanted what was best for him, for him to be healed, even though that healing was coming in the form of his death.  It was with pure unselfish love that I could take his hand, look him in the eyes, and honestly from the heart tell him that when the time came not to hold on for me, that I would be ok.  And although it has been anything but easy I am ok.

Love is many things but more than what it is, it is what it isn't.  Love is never selfish.  Happy Valentine's Day. 

Sensitivity Training

My apologies!  I have gotten slack and I know it and I do apologize.  Over the past few days I have thought I need to blog but have gotten busy with other stuff.  Not an excuse just an explanation.  On to my title.

There are some people who just need sensitivity training!  It is Feb., the love month.  I don't need a reminder of Valentine's Day.  It is the day to celebrate lovers.  Ya, ya, I got it.  It is not one of those holidays (not really a holiday) that I am dreading.  It is just another day, ok.  However, (ya'll knew that was coming).  If you knew me well enough that I had expressed to you from time to time how really lonely I get and that as much as I am enjoying my life that is one part that I am not enjoying.  I do not wallow in it but I would like to not be alone.  With that knowledge would you invite me to your Valentine's party?  Really?!  Whatever would make someone think that I would enjoy an event to celebrate love and couples when I am an "unattached" person?  Yep, sensitivity training, only it would not cross this person's mind that it might have been an inappropriate invitation.  Sometimes you just consider the source.  But it does help me to be a more sensitive person so I guess it was not wasted.  Have a special Valentine's post already but ya gotta wait on it.