I find myself with a social engagement this afternoon that I am not especially looking forward to. I am attending a bar-b-que at some friend's house. Sounds like fun doesn't it? And I am sure it will be. However, (you knew that was coming). I hate going to social functions alone! I am sure that other people don't notice like you think they do but it is almost like having one of those cartoon bubbles over your head saying, "she's alone". Everyone else will be couples, happily married couples. Just another one of those widowhood things that I am still struggling with getting used to. When you have spent so much time as part of a couple and then you find yourself not part of a couple it becomes awkward being in those situations that involve mostly couples. I must admit that when I was part of a couple I really didn't think about it and I apologize for being insensitive to those single folks.
In the past couple of years I have declined quite a few invitations because of this. But I really like this couple who have invited me, enough so that I am going to go.
With all that being said, I have decided I need a man. BUT!, not just any man. I need a gentleman FRIEND who would be willing to attend certain social functions with me but would be happy with that being the only relationship we had. (You know just short of being a paid escort and I would return the favor) Sounds awfully selfish when I actually look at it like that. Which leads me to believe that for the time being I will learn to adapt to these social situations or be conveniently busy when some invitations are issued. And the busy part shouldn't be too hard to pull off, cos like I say, "a moving target is hard to hit."
No comments:
Post a Comment