I Believe

A better title might have been Sunday Morning Ponderings.  Today is Super Bowl Sunday.  I like football but will confess I probably have not watched a full game all season.  As I am sitting here this morning, well actually this train of thought started in the last couple of days, I was pondering on how this is going to be another first without baby brother.  Three years ago he called me to tell me that he and the baby sister were going to have a Super Bowl party.  My reply was, 'oh cool, what do I need to bring?'.  He would be coming from VA and then on Monday we would be going to work the horse sale in SC.  His answer was, 'oh, I forgot to tell you we are having at your house.'  See that is kinda how we rolled.  So for the past 2 years they had their Super Bowl party at my house.  We did watch the game but it was also another excuse, if you will, for us to just be together.  There will be no Super Bowl party at my house this year.  Also, in my musings over the past few days I realized on Thurs. that had things worked out differently Fri. Feb. 2 would have been my parents' 55th wedding anniversary.  It was also the 31st anniversary of my son's death.  He died at 4 months of SIDs.

I have mentioned previously that there are a LOT of things that I don't understand.  It is in those times that I have to rely simply on faith.  See, I believe that God has a plan and God's plan is perfect.  I don't have to understand it to believe it.  I do not claim to believe in predestination, as in things will happen no matter what we do.  We all go through (there is that word again) things that due to our own poor judgement God allows.  In discussing 'when it is your time to go you will go' with my little jailbird (a young lady who works for me that I have for some reason become fond of in 'another mother' kind of way).  I told her that while I did agree with that we should also not tempt God.

Which led me to reflecting on how I am convinced, convicted, and assured that God often puts us where we need to be at certain points in our life.  I believe that the people we meet and become close to are some of His ways of helping them or us or both.  I know without any hesitation that none of us are where we are without His guiding hand.  How we act or react to life situations is often up to us but I believe that each of us are where we are not by accident but by design.

Again, there are many, many things that I don't understand but my faith leads me to believe that all that we are going through is part of God's plan to bring us where He wants us to be.  I believe we can choose to be part of it or fight against the grain and miss the blessings that He has for us.  Am I where I am in my life by accident?  I tend to think not.   Reminded of Psalm 36:10 this morning, 'O continue thy lovingkindness unto them that know thee; and thy righteousness to the upright in heart.'. And also, Psalm 46:10, 'be still and know that I am God'.