Been Gone for too Long

Hi all of ya'll,
Remember me?  Yeah, kinda what I thought.  It has been a long time since last post and there is much to tell and probably won't remember the half.  Hey, isn't that a song, The Half has Never Been Told?  As usual I digress.  I have been flying below the radar probably very literally since I have been on the road...a lot!  Starting the first full week in August I started working on 'duel citizenship', not countries but states.  Starting a new business venture in SC and as a result am living part time in one place and part time in the other.  Trying to set up business and housekeeping in SC while keeping things going for at least another year or so in NC.  Add to that working out the scheduling of working around a sale in VA one time a month then add to that the decline in one brother's health.  My brother is dying and we all know it.  Had a call on Fri. that called the family in so I have spent the past week in VA, all but one night of it in a hospital.  We truly thought we would not get him home again but praise be to God he was able to come home on Wed. evening.  This is and has been very stressful but as I mentioned to the family on Wed. morning we all know what is happening so let's just drag that big white elephant out in the middle of the room and let him join the party.  We have laughed, we have cried, and we have laughed some more.  He has put me in charge of writing the book based around what we all know are these last days.  He even gave me what per his instructions is to be the title of this book.  I will do it and do it as well as I possibly can so that it honors his memory.  I write this because of the need to write and because my heart is breaking.  My baby brother who since his birth has been a big part of my life is going to leave us very soon.  I have never lost a sibling to death before so this is very new to me.  I have lost a child, a parent, and a husband but this is the first sibling.  None of them are easy.  But as I have said, I have broad shoulders and dear friends, especially Dumbass who drove for 12 hours round trip in one day just to make sure I was ok.  Add to this that the anniversary of my husband's death is in one week.  Almost 3 years ago I became a widow and in some ways it does not seem that long but in some ways it seems 100 years ago (maybe because in the past few days I feel about 100 years old).  But life goes on.  Doesn't mean we always like it but it does go on.  And, again I say life is about choices and you can choose to live or you can choose to exist.  I choose to live and enjoy my life.  So after this temporary pause I will get back to my 'duel citizenship' and yep will still be on the road.....alot.